 A Sense Of Loss |
 Lightdark |
  Sol29 |
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some warmth into this chill fading silently tender claim my apology constant contrast winter will come |
about butterflies and children places remained the misplay from silence to noise someone starts to fade away kites lightdark cold afterall like the elephant? you said 'I am...' clouds |
in the white air wearing lies on your lips the child's game the moment she knew waves of time overloaded the broken parts idle end hope for the future sol29 idae14 the red song the world is outside |
| A Sense Of Loss | ||
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| some warmth into this chill | fading silently | tender claim |
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A cold routine to lie in a growing apathy killing me misunderstanding all the way as the darkness grew day by day to dicover the fragility unconscious, unconstant gravity an unmoving, dirty rain our quiet and sterile air You're slowly burning me you're slowly killing me dropping bombs from your throat each bomb falls into my heart burning everything between destroying everything within but the explosion will arrive ..and I'll kill you at last.. it's the cost of your revenge and I'll pay again your bill selling out my own solitude for some warmth into this chill Staring at the same sight through these new different eyes it makes lighter every step it makes lighter every fight Sun emerging through the trees a glimpse of happiness growing free all inside bringing life I'm the antidote to your invisible bane You're slowly burning me you're slowly killing me dropping bombs from your throat each bomb falls into my heart burning everything between destroying everything within but the explosion will arrive ..and I'll kill you at last.. it's the cost of your revenge but I'll pay again my bill selling out my own solitude for some warmth into this chill |
we used to talk so long about the things to come nights flowed into the sea smiling and feeling free your eyes too deep to lie to moments passing by inviting me near you to see you started silently we were lying in the sand you were holding my hand you were playing in the sea always smiling at me then you fell into the dark moving and waving your arms I call your name into my sleep I'm lying to me we use to talk so long about the moments gone you always tried to melt my pain love without restraint your eyes too clear to lie the friends surrounding smile inviting me near you to see we're fading silently we were lying in the sand you were holding my hand you were playing in the sea always smiling at me then you fell into the dark moving and waving your arms call my name into your sleep I still hope you'll be here |
going up this stair sounds come out of nowhere it's your voice speaking low it's my voice fading slow I wish to wake up and still speak your name your sad, beautiful eyes and their tender claim all the meaningless words on the mobile phone and the endless wait for a new dawn I'll wait and stare wherever everyone else would never stare I wish to be somewhere else start again and forget from above and below what I learned and thought you'll never find me twice in the same view together with you in all things we do all the meaningless words on the mobile phone and the endless wait for a new dawn I'll wait and stare wherever everyone else would never stare all the meaningless words on the mobile phone and the endless wait for a new dawn after our own sunset |
| my apology | constant contrast | winter will come |
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depending on what I should feel on the way on the day I decided to leave remembering places where we walked before remembering time when we were in love draining moods every day waiting for my drug.. did you ever feel the same? did I say goodbye? the wonder flowing slow the bridges falling down the empty spaces of your hate surrounding walls you create do you see me? please, this is my apology.. it's the way we are now our winter will come do you feel the same now? did I say goodbye? it's the way we are now our winter will come did you ever feel the same? did I say goodbye? |
every morning my self destruction grows days and days asleep to change the script of this show the constant contrast too deep facing the loss from that day, 19 years ago small workers inside and around destroying and building again on more solid ground I'm leaving you now departing from here to avoid admitting that pain is writing and singing your name I lived a different world a different life not me dreaming every day every night how happy I could be I heard my ears blown away the music louder than silence in me I tried to balance accounts of my life but a plain blank sheet is all that remained it's the obsession for desperate hope for something I couldn't cope I still hit my head against the wall 'cause I'm so scared to lose your love but I'm leaving you now departing from here to avoid admitting that pain is writing and singing your name |
dark clouds away and over again falling leaves moved by air a wind from far suddenly appeared sounds from the sky in my ears a well known smell all around in the air silently...suggesting...invisibly it started to rain your silence louder than words from your mouth and the future declined day after day, month after month through the maze of your mind infecting our path with several mines I know I was wishing to escape but I fell through the holes I create it's a pleasing feel to touch your skin to be here, with you, breathing again like thousands windows on the infinite time in the dark sky the stars light shines bringing us the story of the time before the start of dead and born worlds of planets and stars like thousands windows on the infinite time in the dark sky the stars light shines of dying and born worlds of planets and stars the sun on the sea the reasons to fear the silence that grows the hate growing slow the gap between us the warmth leaving us we see what we did the places we lived your voice speaking low my voice leaving noise the phone in your hand your path to the end we left our thoughts and things flowing through the faces of friends the fire on the sand the stars in the night planets and skies is what you believed to what disappeared already in the dark I'm dying in your heart the summer has gone and winter will come it arrived...and left us behind |
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| Disc 1 | ||
| places remained | the misplay | from silence to noise |
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I saw you outside in your own reflection looking for friends without caution they asked you to try again you had to stop, but facts remained you can say I was loosing my fight you can say I was wrong and you were right you were lying and keeping away all the feelings you always complained you can say you were loosing your mind you can say you were feeling behind you were looking for places around falling down until you hitted the ground solding out all the emotions you pictured your life without caption can't stop this because of the flow, the days, the options and feels the way you always deceive you can say I was loosing my fight you can say I was wrong and you were right you were lying and keeping away all the feelings you always complained you can say you were loosing your mind you can say you were feeling behind you were looking for places remained confusing yourself in the rain |
screen blinking bright and tired like broken ice in thousand forms reflecting voices we just ignored now fingers type cold and slow last row after last row today is grey outside the windows and the wind is breaking words and breath we should have know it's a compromise now the snow flakes fall from the skies covering sounds while your echo dies you came to me and asked why I'm not with you if even you tried I'm not with you every new day I cannot say I can't explain I felt constrained by your misplay |
I woke up with your voice I can't see your face through the door you entered by when you say you're not here when you say you won't hear laying down on the beach of youth you should know all the hate in the nights we escaped by all the love and revenge lands below passing by trashing all the locks and chains you should know what I know it's a struggle to let you go outside the rain in the morning glow, filling roads something flows around melting pain always here when it starts to rain it's hard to say the sacrifice the open windows on the spring air but silence here has found it's way to stay the sound of your voice your face, flowers and sun I still see your lips moving air but I'm not here and you're not there it's hard to say the sacrifice the open windows on the spring air but silence here has found it's way to stay the sound of your voice your face, flowers and sun I still see your lips moving, I still hear your silence and noise |
| someone starts to fade away | kites | lightdark |
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Finds himself caught too many times Limited thoughts, compromised lines When his eyes close, when the walls fall, Everyone knows that he still hears your call Someone starts to fade away (when the walls fall, he still hears your call) When his eyes close, when the dream stalls, Everyone knows that he's nowhere to fall The smell on his clothes the chill in the air The feelings that grow, but are too much to bear Someone starts to fade away (when the walls fall, he still hears your call) |
paths divided on the edge defend yourself and kill the rest it's your rule to survive turn your head and keep your half 'flowers waving in my childish fields trains passing by far on the rails kites were flying high in the sky it was my game, before that night.. your dresses on the bed walls deforming, words unsaid glasses crushing in the night I was terrified..' 'it's not a matter you'll pay for, don't take on so' you said on telephone I'm not angry, I'm now aware I'm just away, you'll never know where 'flowers waving in my childish fields trains passing by far on the rails kites were flying high in the sky it was my game, before that night.. my dresses on the bed walls deforming, words unsaid glasses crushing in the night I was terrified..' your dresses on the bed walls deforming, words unsaid I didn't want to hear your cry can you forgive me for that night? I should have kept you tight.. |
now I'm thinking again at your poison in vein at the days passing by now I'm lost in the night I can see you in the dim light and this house is so quiet I can hear you walking outside I still see you falling asleep you left winning your fight I remember the light when we walked in the night and the cold on the street all the food you won't eat and the silence you broke with the sound of your steps all the dreams that we made all the times that we played then that morning arrived I was ready to go but you failed to start I just knew what I saw I was feeling my legs disappearing like yours sliding down on the floor trying to reach for the door you were lying on the floor can't standup anymore.. now I'm walking alone and the nights are so long but we'll meet in the skies and I'll look in your eyes I still cry in my bed wish you here with your smell it's the lightdark it's the lightdark ..lightdark.. ..lightdark.. |
| Disc 2 | ||
| cold afterall | you said 'I am...' | |
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after walks on the strand and your hand in his hand things change, and so your smile sounds right under our own lies is the joke of our past looking for when it will last and your words and your screams are you ready to come back again? lost the spell of voice and smell all the words are faint and gone what at last do you want? a new cause to live or to be mad for? now the silence is so long.. in the sky of me and you it's cold afterall is the joke of our past looking for when it will last and your words and your screams are you ready to come back again? I can see you from the hall leaving me in the crowd alone.. all the things that you said spin around in this desolate land.. now the rain has fallen and you smiled at my face.. are you ready to come back again? |
from door to door regret the past the ones we closed the wait at last the walls of hate the time dilates.. this night will pass? the skyes will turn? the sun will set? ..the morning comes don't stop fighting me don't stop feeling me don't stop hurting me don't stop reminding me.. ..you said 'I am..' shells full of love and your darkest thoughts enlightened and still through the swirling clouds melting slowly in your sweetest laughs wondering how you reached me here ..you knock at my door your wishes unclear don't stop fighting me don't stop feeling me don't stop haunting me don't stop reminding me.. ..you said 'I am..' |
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| in the white air | wearing lies on your lips | overloaded |
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I remember you watching through the window face at the cold air the snow falling mute and cold from the sky I remember you playing outside in the white air the door closing slow on the cold stairs open your door and I'll tell you the story of a life flowing away staring at the window face in the cold air I crossed the time, one last time don't go away, I'm fine.. we had so many things to say why did you cannot stay? I knew it has to be so where the hell did you go? |
turning the key in the lock of the door a sound that I know, played before the cat from the path stares at me laughing going upstairs darkness is falling in the quiet of the evening walking down the streets I can see you wearing lies on your lips days go by, minutes and hours, fading away tomorrow morning will we still have something to say? I taste all my loneliness sat in a room killing the one who drove her to the doom I shout in my head through the noise of this maze she slows it all down smashing my face in the quiet of the evening walking down the streets I can see you wearing lies on your lips days go by, minutes and hours, fading away tomorrow morning will we still have something to say |
I wake up in the night watching pictures on the wall of a past I always feel I never saw another day is coming out while lights flow fast on the road spending days at the phone searching what is missing and gone waiting the day when nothing is yet become coming back home I can feel desolation in my mind it's cold in the car but I'm darker inside counting hours to the end of the day I search a place to hide spending days at the phone searching what is missing and gone waiting the day when nothing is yet become |
| the broken parts | idle end | hope for the future |
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so here we are after all those years and I'm looking again in those eyes this autumn sea waited for us we'll never come back it seems too late, too far it seems too cold walking down these stairs outside is morning I think I never thought it could happen outside is morning now that things passed through now I'm again in you remember moments that last night all the things we waved goodbye |
come out and walk into this fading night gaze at the sun in this fluttering sight I took her by hand and said don't move so fast a moment is short ..and gone music won't las |
I'm just tired of staying here oppressed by time going by and growing old I'm just not smiling since too much time waiting to leave or to die and joy is gone weeping away cracks of time all this pain I embrace inside going up the river of time I'm waiting to become a child and I'll hold on in this dark noisy room and I'll clean up this fucked mind there's just too much darkness in my disease looking for happiness into the falling leaves I would smash this starkness with the hope for the future encountering me in a sunny day "Hello how're you?" I would say all me shining inside like when I was a boy |
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falling down the outside world you can distinguish every single edge in the shape of their breath taking pictures of a summertime again looking for lost places I felt this before where unheard voices remain of an happy day when time like a sleepwalker flows around hot and cold smelling the air spinning around to hide when the world is outside you can distinguish every single edge in the shape of their breath taking pictures of a summertime again |
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